You lose a lot when you quit drinking.
You lose that feeling of nagging anxiety, self hatred, lethargy. You lose the wine belly and hangovers. You say "hasta la vista, baby" to the Wine Witch.
Some of these things go immediately. Some take days, weeks or even months.
Some things you don't even notice have gone until you look around one day and think "That's odd! I haven't seen xxx for a while."
I've posted about all the big losses a few times, but there are lots of little things too. Small miracles that go unnoticed until something makes you realise they are there - right under your nose.
So, I thought I'd write a list.
I love lists. I've been writing a list of my Desert Island Disks for about twenty years waiting for Radio 4 to call me up.
(Unsurprisingly, my 'luxury item' used to be a case of Chablis! I need to find a new one now...)
LIST OF SMALL THINGS I'VE LOST
Noisy recycling bags
Missing the end of movies
Googling "am I an alcoholic?"
Jokes about 'Mummy's wine'
Closing one eye to read straight
Make-up on the pillow
There are hundreds more. I'm looking out for them now.
Please add your own in the comments below!
Love SM x