Things I've Lost

You lose a lot when you quit drinking.

You lose that feeling of nagging anxiety, self hatred, lethargy. You lose the wine belly and hangovers. You say "hasta la vista, baby" to the Wine Witch.

Some of these things go immediately. Some take days, weeks or even months.

Some things you don't even notice have gone until you look around one day and think "That's odd! I haven't seen xxx for a while."

I've posted about all the big losses a few times, but there are lots of little things too. Small miracles that go unnoticed until something makes you realise they are there - right under your nose.

So, I thought I'd write a list.

I love lists. I've been writing a list of my Desert Island Disks for about twenty years waiting for Radio 4 to call me up.

(Unsurprisingly, my 'luxury item' used to be a case of Chablis! I need to find a new one now...)

LIST OF SMALL THINGS I'VE LOST

Cashier phobia
Breath freshener
3am
Room spin
Muffin top
Nurofen
Clock watching
Noisy recycling bags
Drunken texts
Unexplained bruises
Mini cabs
Fridge raids
Unexplained rage
Repeating myself
Missing the end of movies
Repeating myself
Slurring
Stained lips
Googling "am I an alcoholic?"
Jokes about 'Mummy's wine'
Night sweats
Closing one eye to read straight
Make-up on the pillow
Bloodshot eyes
Wardrobe malfunctions

There are hundreds more. I'm looking out for them now.

Please add your own in the comments below!

Love SM x