An amazing thing has happened since I officially came out of the closet last week. (See my post: SoberMummy's Coming Out).
As well as posting here, I also posted my book cover on my Facebook page.
Now, I didn't think I had any sober friends. I thought all my friends drank (almost) as much as I did. I thought that me going sober would horrify them. That's why I hid for more than two years behind a pseudonym.
But, within hours of posting, several of my friends - from university, from advertising and from the school gate had messaged me privately saying I've given up too. Years ago. Best thing I ever did. Can we get together?
Why, why, why don't we shout about going sober? So we can find each other and support each other. Why do we all struggle on feeling so alone, when we're not?
I think mothers are particularly wary of confessing to having a problem with alcohol. We worry about being seen as bad parents, as terrible examples for our children.
Even more so, mothers who are in the medical or teaching professions, and who counsel patients and students daily about the dangers of alcohol.
Well, if you are a doctor, or a nurse, or a teacher then hear this: YOU ARE NOT ALONE! I get e-mails from doctors, nurses and teachers every single week.
We only feel alone because of the stigma surrounding alcohol addiction.
This makes me mad. And sad.
So, since I'm already out of that closet, and since I've never been one to do things by halves (not bottles of wine, not life), I decided to do a TED talk! On 'making sober less shameful.'
How, I asked myself, does one go about doing a TED talk? Who is TED and what's his e-mail address?
Then, I went to my postbox, and blow me down with a feather, I discovered, amongst the bills and flyers and catalogues, the most extraordinary piece of serendipity: a letter from my old Cambridge college saying We are hosting a TEDx event and are looking for alumnae who are interested in speaking.
So I applied. I wrote 300 words on how and why I want to change the world. Then I had to upload a one minute video of me talking to camera.
I roped in Mr SM.
We recorded many different versions. Some were too long. Some too short. The dog barked during one. This light was wrong in another. It was a nightmare.
Then we recorded one that was just perfect.
Let me see! I said to Mr SM. He passed me the phone. It WAS perfect. Except for one thing: IT WAS UPSIDE DOWN!
Well, said Mr SM, at least it'll stand out.
After some more trial and error we did one up the right way, and it's gone off, to TED (wherever he is).
Fingers crossed.
Love SM (Clare)
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